Early Morning Thoughts

*disclaimer - it is 2am and I am going on 2 hours of sleep so if this post sounds all 'woe is me' or 'selfish', that is not the way this is intended!

Miss K is now 6 weeks old! *sigh* I have been loving every minute with her and bonding with her like I never got to do with the boys when they were teeny, tiny. Having 2 colicky babies screaming at once, you don't really get that 'bonding time', especially when you have bad post partum!

What has been weighing on my mind, though, is that our family is complete, done, el fin! I am actually pretty sad knowing that I won't have any more babies. Knowing that my reproductive chapter in my life is coming to an end. My hubs only wanted 2 children and I wanted 4 or more. We compromised at 3 partly because we got the '2 for 1' deal the first time around and wanted to try for a girl. Miss K was 'made' sooner than we thought which means she was in our lives sooner than we planned but we don't love her any less. It just means that our life is pretty damn crazy right now with a newborn and 2 toddlers that are in their (really) terrible two's!

I am very happy I had all my kids young, that I was and will be able to still be active with them and young enough still when they are graduating high school and possibly entering college. I do feel that we are complete with Kamdyn but it still doesn't make me long for just one more.

I don't want to sound selfish. That isn't me..........while having 3 is proving to be quite difficult with the ages they are all at and I get VERY frustrated and complain, I still love all of them and just think having another to give all my love to would be a dream to me! Since that isn't going to happen, I am moving on, closing this chapter and focusing on raising my children the best I can. I am thankful that my husband gave me 3 precious lives to love and I love our little family so much I can hardly stand it!

Wordless Wednesday

A month already?

Between packing, moving and unpacking (oh, and having a baby!), this last month has flown by and has been so crazy! I finally had time to sit and breathe today and thought 'holy cow, my baby is a month old'. Time sure does fly and while we've been doing so much the last month, I have been enjoying my bonding time even if it is at 2am!

Kamdyn is just a gem! She is such a good baby and dare I say it, an angel! She surely has her moments but really, for the most part, she just cries when she is hungry or needs a diaper change. I guess after having 2 colicky babies, I needed the blessing and experience of what a 'normal' baby is like.

I feel so bad that I haven't taken many pictures of her like I did with the boys but I finally had some time yesterday. I plan to do monthly's again and then switch to every 6 months and then every year. We are due for another family picture as well. Hopefully I can get that done before going back to work. We'll see..............I don't even want to think about going back to work but it is bound to happen, unless I change my mind and decide to stay at home. Hmmm, we'll see!

Breastfeeding is going ok. I am happy I was able to keep my supply up longer than I did with the twins but at this point, I'm really just 'casually' doing it. I pump every now and then and really haven't been keeping my fluid intake up like I should. I am going to try to get my supply back up there to last a little longer. Hopefully it works! KK goes back to the doctor August 30th and I can't wait to see how much she weighs! She is already starting to fit into some 0-3 month clothes and is almost out of newborn diapers. I just can't believe she is getting so big already. It kind of makes me sad!

Here are some of the pictures I took yesterday of my peanut!



She is such a great subject to take pictures of. My next challenge is to get a 'good' picture of all 3 of the kids together. It's not so easy with two 2 1/2 year olds that don't sit still for 2 seconds! We will see what ideas I can come up with!!

Our Birth Story

Finally, after 2 weeks, I am getting around to updating this blog with Kamdyn's birth story. It's been very crazy here in our house with having a new baby in the house and packing to move in TWO days! Aye!
Anyways, everyone knew the last few weeks of my pregnancy that I was just completely done being pregnant. With the 100 degree heat and me measuring ahead, I was so completely uncomfortable that I just wanted her out!

June 30th, we had our rummage sale. For a few days before that I was starting to feeling a lot of downward pressure but never had any braxton hicks contractions at all.

July 1st, we decided since the day before didn't go so well that we weren't going to have the rummage sale again. We ended up playing at my parents house in the morning, came home and put the boys down for their nap. I took a nap as well and woke up with some lower back pain. I had all back contractions with the boys, albeit, not very strong or uncomfortable. With the boys they just felt like a dull lower back pain. This time though, they were strong and I felt them in my stomach, too.

I laid in bed for a good hour and then started calling friends asking questions since I never had 'real' labor or contractions with the boys. I started timing and I felt them every 5-8 minutes apart. I called my doctor and was told to drink water (which I have been doing) and rest (which I also have been doing). She apparently wasn't much help.

I waited another hour and at that point they were about 3-5 minutes apart. I was told if it was false labor that drinking water, rest and possibly walking would stop them so I decided to take a walk. Total bad idea..............I made it halfway around the block before I started to feel very light headed and nauseous. I managed to make it back home and was so hot that I stripped down and sat at the bottom of a cool shower. By this time I was in so much pain that I was screaming, etc. Basically all the fun things you see on t.v.

After about another 30 minutes, I felt a little gush and thought it was my water breaking (remember, I never went through this before with my 1st pregnancy). I told K to call my parents because we had to get to the hospital.

We arrived at about 7:30pm and when I was checked I was a whopping 1cm and 50% effaced. I was given a bag of fluid, pain meds and nausea medication (because I was puking all over myself. Fun times!).

My doctor finally came in at 9:30pm to check me again and I still had no change. My contractions were still off the charts and I was given the option to wait it out or go ahead with my c-section. Being 36 weeks, I felt kind of selfish wanting to just get it done because I worried that baby KK wouldn't be totally developed, etc. but I just knew since the pain meds and fluids didn't help my contractions one bit that I couldn't go on any longer in that much pain.

Kamdyn Kay was born at 11:47pm on July 1st and weighed 6lbs 15oz. She was just perfect! I felt this connection with her instantly. Maybe it was just that I had my baby girl or because she was happy and healthy. Either way, it was another great moment in my life!

The last 2 weeks home have been crazy. Kamdyn wasn't supposed to come until July 23rd since we are moving this weekend. She had other plans and that is fine. The boys have been ok with her. They are acting out a lot and being very naughty at home so we have really started to kick disciplining into high gear. They are doing good under the stressful circumstances. Just 2 more days and we'll be in our new house and getting settled will hopefully shut down the acting out a little bit.

We are just so happy to have our little girl home and enjoy her every minute we can. I will update as I have time. With 3 under 3, I am one busy woman at times but there IS always nap time! :)

Welcome to the world Kamdyn Kay!

My day on July 1st started out normal. Woke up, got the kids out of bed and planned out what to do that morning. A few days before, I started feeling a lot of pressure downward and wondered if it was KK starting to descend. I was feeling fine otherwise so I didn't think much of it. I was only 35 weeks and thought it was early. Apparently, she had other plans.........

That afternoon, I took a nap on the weekends like usual. I woke up with some lower back pain. About an hour later it started to get worse so I started to time when I would feel pain. It was about 5-8 minutes apart. I called the on call doctor when I started feeling it in my back and lower ab area and she said to drink water (which I had been doing) and take a walk. If that didn't help then I should go in. By the time I got up and refilled my water and got outside, I was feeling the contractions 3-5 minutes apart. I got almost around the block and started to feel really nauseous and light headed so I got home as fast as I could.

When I got upstairs, I was so hot so I stripped down and got in the cool shower. The pain got so bad so fast and I had Kevin call my parents to come over and said that we had to get to the hospital. It felt like forever for them to get to our house. I couldn't stand up because I was so light headed and felt like I was going to puke so I scooted my butt down the stairs and managed to get into the car.

Once we got to the hospital and I got into the bed, I started puking uncontrollably. I couldn't hold it in. I was checked and surprisingly I was only 1cm and 50% effaced. The doctor on call was in a surgery so I waited 2 hours for her to come check me again and I still had no change. I was given the option to wait it out or go ahead with my c-section which I had scheduled for July 23rd. My contractions were off the chart and I was in so much pain that I decided to go ahead with the c-section.

Kamdyn Kay came at 11:47pm on July 1st and weighed 6lbs 15oz. I was 36 weeks exactly!

We have been home for a few days and while it's been hard and chaotic (we are also in the midst of moving in 1 1/2 weeks), we are so happy she is here. We have had some bumps with the boys and having them act out but we are trying to work through it as best as we can.

Once I have more time, I will upload all of the gazillion pictures I have taken thus far! :)







Boy or Girl?

I’m still for some reason skeptical as to the gender of my unborn child but Dr. McDreamy has told me that their office has never been wrong. I did make him check 3 times so I’m quite certain he is right but just for fun, let’s go through the old wives tales to see what it predicts:



Sleep in left side (boy) or right side (girl) – Right side

Extreme nausea (girl) or a little/none (boy) – I had very bad nausea this pregnancy

Soft hands (girl) or dry hands (boy) – Soft hands

Craving citrus (girl) – Tie! I craved fruit with both pregnancies

Adult acne (girl) – Yup! I have had more blemishes this pregnancy than with the boys

Graceful (girl) or clumsy (boy) – I am always pretty clumsy so this one can’t count too much

Face weight gain (girl) – Tie! I did get a fuller face towards the end of my pregnancy with the boys and don’t have any face weight gain what-so-ever now

Craving salt (boy) or sweets (girl) – I crave both but more sweets than anything

Mood swings (girl) – Yes!

Carrying low (boy) or high (girl) – High

Baby weight all in front (boy) or space all around (girl) – Both pregnancies I was all belly. Tie!

Pendulum test – Have not done this one at all

If a toddler shows interest in your belly (girl) or no interest (boy) – Most kids have shown interest

Age and year of conception are even (girl) or one even, one odd (boy) – This says I would have a boy

Heartbeat more than 150 (girl) or less than 150 (boy) – The boys heartbeats were always over 150?



Boy = 1 Girl = 8 Tie = 4



Looks like the doctor is right! And according to the Chinese gender predictor chart, it says I am having a girl as well.

Now all we need is the next 45 days to zoom by so we can meet baby KK!